Reinventing and Re-imagining Myself

Is growth or rather growing through experience a process of unconscious self development or one of conscientious desire for change based on the reinventing and re-imagining of one's self?

I found myself pondering the question today and find that it is still an open question which perhaps may ultimately be impossible for me to truly answer.

I think that at some early point the never-then self conscious adolescent was tainted, like that of Adam and Eve with original sin, took bite of the fruits of social ills and hence forth began the tireless process of reinventing and re-imagining himself.

At what point in life was it that the carefree state of nakedness require clothing or that the process of just being begin to require the masks of layers upon layers of social expectations and external influences?

I have always been much better at dreaming than at realizing my fantasies. Despite being quite aware of this lifelong ailment, I find that regardless of identity, whether one is a dreamer or doer, the creative and imaginative qualities of both inventor and daydreamer are requisites in this ongoing process of change we dub life.

I am tired of dreaming and awaiting paths to open for me.

I am ready to awaken and pave my own path to self fulfillment.