The employment situation continues to move forward a glacier speeds. The slugs in the backyard seem to currently have a better momentum then I.
It has been ten months now of pinching pennies, stressing and the feelings of inadequacy that tend to come when one is rendered unable to provide a suitable financial means for themselves.
A few weeks ago, I sat in the waiting room of a company for which I was temping for that day.
I was irritated and had mixed feeling about being there.
For one, they had a big client coming in and all I was needed for was to make the house seem fuller and give the client a sense of reassurance which would hopefully win my employer the new account.
Mostly however, I was beating myself up over the fact that I have done so much professionally and yet I sat in preparation of acting able rather then being allowed an opportunity to use my actual abilities.
I then at the very moment turned and caught eye of what seemed to be one of those self-help inspirational cooperate posters which turned out to be the company's motto.
I swear that the message seemed to be divine providence of sorts because it read as follows:
"The arrogance of success is to think that what you did yesterday, will be sufficient tomorrow."
Excuse the colloquial but, aint that the fucking truth?
I know that I have long allowed my work experience to surpass the academic titles I would require to continue to move up the ladder success.
Yet, it is what it is, an ongoing struggle between my dreams and that of reality.
Reality usually gets the best of me and I am required to put the dreams on hold.
Yet, I continue to chip away at those dreams which I never stop dreaming.
A credit here, a Saturday night course there, another mediocre position and infinite patience will slowly but surly get me closer to those aspired dreams.
In the meantime, I will just have to continue to practice patience, dream, and work at one day working to live life, and break away from this less than favorable systematic pattern of living to work.
