Hitting The Books

I am in the process of heading back to school. It is as equally frustrating as it is exciting. I truly dread long college start-of-the-semester lines. I guess that I will now be hitting the books hard. Meaning, I will spend endless hours in the library one of the many places that kicks my ADD into full gear. At least I they have wireless connection at my campus. School, although in my eyes rewarding in its own right, will only add to the stress factor in my life. I hope that I am able to manage it all. Last time I was in school I was doing great until the last month of the semester that arrived with the difficult end of a long relationship, layoff and varies finical difficulties. I received two A’s and two incompletes. My GPA has since dropped to a 3.75 compared to the 3.9 I manage to maintain every year. I know that the Dean will probably call me out on this next time he corners me. Well, I guess that membership on the Dean’s List will have too wait till next semester. I would have loved to qualify for the Bell Zeller scholarship this year. Its loads of money! I had a chance at it last year but gracefully bowed away from the situation, which required full time enrollment, never imagining a layoff. Those funds would have really helped right about now. Instead I am caught in the crazy web of Financial Aid applications. The worst part is that my 2004 taxes 1040 form shows me making well over fifty thousand a year. A waiting table position makes no where near that amount. So Uncle Sam will be under the impression that I am rolling in it. Hence, I have no option other then taking student loans which will only make my fiscal hole deeper.

So, if in the following months you notice any posts with an air of suicidal undertone, disregard them. It probably meant that I was stuck in the library.